Well Today I went on youtube and learned how to draw more realistic.. Anyway today I really dont know. I know I need to leave and I surely  gotta work on getting my permit. Because I going crazy  and I cant be here next year and next semester in the snow. Yesterday and today my grandmother has been aggavating me picking and yelling about stupid things. When I haven't said or done anything. And for some reason I allow it to sadden me. Right now I'm tearing up because I don't know what to do. Only so much a person care bare..I try to think about others things so that she cant take my sanity. She gets me depress/sad and I later I cant concertrate on the things that I'm suppose to be doing like my homework. She tells me things I asked her not to tell me like what other people tell her nasty stuff. Yesterday her phone stopped working she told me that I cant have my internet because her phone is off. Her attitude was if I dont have my phone you cant have the internet which I'm paying for separately. If someone wakes her up she yells and starts screaming " I can't sleep neither will anyone else"..Slowy but surely I'm going go crazier then which I am..I have to go in order to keep sain.. I know once I'm gone I'm not going to come back.There is know reason to.