Who I Am

Like I said in my pro in the "about me" section I have ideas and dreams. But I dont know how to make them come true. I've been living in a eniroment that I dont like. My grandmother is a very negative and complains all the time. I'm 22 and living at home going to school and working. But it seems like I'm not going anywhere because I'm lonely dont have any friends. I have people that I'm cool with but I dont call them and talk to them like that. Maybe its they way I was brought up. I'm overweight now I always been since I was like 8yrs old. My grandmother tell me my flaws and pick on me curising me. My mother she was a drug addict so my grandmother adopted me when I was one. I always tried to be with my mother but bad things always came of it. I remeber one night spending the night at her house when I was younger. I was there because thats where my brothers and sisters where there is 6 of us all together. Well I remember her waking me up in the middle of the night saying "where is it" I had no idea what she was talking about. She was talking about her crack pipe which I didnt know what it looked like. I only remember the bad things of my past and not the good for some reason. My grandma use to keep me and my sister who is a year younger then me. my mom came to visit us and to take us out for a pizza. I was like 5 or younger. I remember eating at the pizza place and coming back in the cab and my sister not getting out and walking in the dark home. My grandmother says I came screaming and crying with a note in my pocket from my mother saying that she took my sister.